Never ending...

Problems on top of problems. Never after. So sick and tired of it. My mind is still messed up about my very own boyfriend, and now I have to think of my ex, which is now someone else's boyfriend. Yes, we're close... but its annoying how when he's sick and stressed, his brother will look for me. I am his friend. A simple friend. Not his girlfried, nor am I his wife. Why the fuck search for me? My life is already hard as it is, why can't you people deal with your own problems? You think your problem is the biggest in the world because you're sick and your girlfriend ignores you. I have this sickness for the past 4 years, my family is one big problem summed up, my boyfriend treats me like trash and now I have to deal with YOUR problems. What the hell am I? Serious. Don't be selfish. I need a life away from your problems too, to settle my own problems. I'm tired always being the middleman. You self pity yourself, but you don't pity others that are having a hard time because of you.

Messed up.

Its annoying how you keep me waiting day and night for your text. You said 'jap', 'brb', 'text u later'. Fuck all that. You never did return. Fuck all that. And fuck you. Why are you doing this to me? Were you like this when you're with your ex and you contacted me? I didn't know. And I regret. Maybe because I 'stole' you from her, someone else is trying to steal you from me? And you? That easy? Really? How long did you stay and tried your best to get me? 5 months. How long did it take for you to get bored of me and find someone else? 4 months. Thats not even equal. Man, I regret ever knowing and loving you. I'd rather continue the 3 years of loving someone I can't have. My biggest regret was giving my first kiss to you. I thought you'd be different. But you're just the same as Raihan and Faiz. I'm so disappointed with you. I'd rathee be single than be in a relationship that makes me feel alone... but I still love you. That's stupid and that hurts.