It's been awhile...

Its been a long time since I wrote here. So many things happened. So many things changed.  Life is just so complicated.From the last post, I can say I stopped talking to Khidhir hahaha. Probably for the best. Dont want to catch them feelings again... right? Raihan is... well... being Raihan. The asshole but sometimes really, really sweet boyfriend material, Raihan. I still love him. But I dont know if I'm in love with him like how I used to. He kept giving me hopes... but he never showed any chances either. So, I'm not so sure. I feel like being toyed with but I know he didn't mean anything at all. He is just being a good guy friend, thats all. But thats what made it hurt so much more. Anyway, whatever. He said he is not ready to be in a relationship cus he want to "grow up as a person". LOL. Okay. I dont really know what to feel anymore. With all these assholes. My life just suck at everything, right? Not just romance... but life as a whole. Lol.