Intern 2nd Phase

I swear I think someone needs to literally come here and save me from this hell hole HAHA

As you can see, life is terrible here......... I, for once, am shocked that I am pissed to be sitting around playing games all day. I mean, it would be such a great thing if I didn't have to wake up at the crack of dawn to chase after a bus and be transported to somewhere 1 hour away from home. Of course, life is not that kind. I HAVE TO DO ALL THAT, and sit on this miserable excuse for a chair, for a whole 10 hours. To add to that beautifully miserable life, I have to constantly be on edge whenever someone comes by the office. Ended up reading the same document/journal 10 times, while looking for spelling errors that no longer exist (okay 10 times checking are enough to ensure all spellings are on point) and trying to make myself super preoccupied.

Who knew you'd be pissed just being able to play games and listen to songs. Maybe it was the uncomfortable chair? Maybe its the amount of guys surrounding me? OR MAYBE BECAUSE I WOKE UP EARLY AND TRAVELED FAR TO BE DOING NOTHING? Oh well. At least I get paid lolol but ...................................... ugh somebody please save me I beg you 😭😭😭😭😭 preferably Tsumugu or Minato or Akiyoshi or SaeYoung or Jumin BUT at this point anyone would be perfect ugh.

Its hasn't even been HALF of June, and I'm sooooooooooooo stoked for internship to end. Which is in 2 and a half months. With also the fact that I HAVE to reduce the number of MCs I can take. Don't blame if this place makes me wanna die all the time I had to call in sick lol make this a better place w better seats and I can probably go longer without MC.

I'm sorry this post is just ranting I seriously am trying to keep myself sane and trying my best to live through this. I really wanna graduate and I pray so hard that I won't end up back in this place, or anything worse than this.

Intern 1st Phase

I should probably write here often. It's the only place I can rant and not be judge. okay I'll still be judged, but I wouldn't know, would I? HAHA.

April 2017

Intern starts. All drama left behind. I need this. I WANT this. I can do this. It's my life, and I have to prove to pricks that I can go further thanks to them, or thanks to their disappearance. Everything seems to be okay now. Cool and steady. BUT what am I doing at my intern again?

God I miss school and friends. Life here is boring. You sit and stare and do nothing for a whole 10 hours. Who knew intern could this bloody boring. Unbelievable. Got my first pay. It was pathetic, but at least I have some cash for the "work" I did. Glad to say I survived the first 3 days I was thrown here.

May 2017

Dad's birthday came by so fast. Thankfully I had money to treat him something. It wasn't much, but it will have to do for now. Work has gradually improved. I read documents, edit documents, and then I'm back to staring. but at least now I have a laptop, and I can listen to music and act like i'm doing some work. 

Days go by without a proper project, or a decent work. LO is getting in my nerves, and supervisor clearly doesn't give a shit. I had 4 MCs in 1 month of working at this place. Got really worried about my pay. Can you imagine losing $110 just because I'm sick of work lol joke but it would be horrible.

I did manage to get something rather important to do nearing the end of the month, but
I wished it was something better. LO wouldn't stop nagging and making us feel guilty. How am I supposed to feel guilty? I asked. I wanted something. There's nothing for me to do. I can't force them right? I'm so confused but I dealt with the days.

Maybe things would be better in the fasting month?

Peace?

Wow it's been awhile. Was I too preoccupied with life? Or I just couldn't put everything in words? So many things happened this year. Its only the start of 2017, and I feel like my life just went over my head and changed completely. People left, new people came, plans backfired, feelings hurt. I guess that's life right?

January-February 2017
Things were as per usual. At least that's what I thought. We have people staying over here. So much longer than your usual "staying over". The house became so much messier and noisier. Parents became so much more vexed and the constant quarrels were suffocating. These people... I wonder what they felt. They were the ones causing all this ruckus. Don't they feel guilty? Not even a single trace of guilt! How do you even live with yourself?

You can't accept the truth when its thrown right at your face. You can't use your brain either. Well, since I'm always the stupid one, I suppose you'd be wiser right? I guess not. If you're happy with I said, or would like to disagree and give a better fact about yourself, you should've came and spoke to me.

I know now that both of you are COWARDS. You think everyone is scared of you cus you are a frequent resident in prison. I really don't give 2 shits. In fact, I don't even have to worry. You screw up, you end up back in there lol. But seriously, social media? Involving outsiders? You're THAT lacking up there? It's so sad to see how low you have stooped. And that friend of yours... just the same kind of shit you are.

Whatever, I don't really about you anyway. I brought myself a huge burden just thinking how could a sister do this but then I realised, you've been like a sister to me anyway. You were too busy hating me since I was born and no matter what accomplishments I achieved, it's causing you sore eyes. So yeah, for all I care, I have the house back pace and quiet and CLEAN.

Now, I should enjoy the peace, right? 🤣😏