Okay, I'm back within a few hours! It's rare, I know, but I promised and well, I didn't really have anything else to do 😆
So, not sure where to start. Maybe from where it started to grow worse. Hmm... after working at my crazy ass workplace, I was transferred to a warehouse branch on the same company. It was much closer to home, but the environment was critical. I got a panic attack on the first day, broke down in the bathroom twice and prevented another one before I went home. It was shitty there. Work was extremely heavy, it worsened my back terribly and I fell sick much more there. Long story short, I decided to resign so I could take a break. Met great colleagues on my last week of work there, which was upsetting. I would have stayed if the job wasn't causing harm to me. But anyway, I quit after a month there, and that's where shit went down.
A week - no - a few days after I resigned, my mum started making a fuss about shit. didn't give me a chance at all to rest and take my time before she forced me to move to my sister's boarding school. You bet I was upset. It wasn't much of a heads up as we pretty much left the night of the day she told me. Literally forced me there and stuff. Took my phone away and left me without any money or any means of contacting anyone. Good thing is, I argued to stay at my sister's house instead so I still had my nieces to accompany me. It was the longest two weeks of my life; crying, crying, studying, praying, crying again, waiting. I left my friends with not much of a warning and a goodbye, I left my boyfriend with not much of anything either. All we agreed on was that he'll wait for me and be honest if he decides to leave. Well, he didn't, thankfully.
So I came back on Monday this week due to a hospital appointment scheduled on Tuesday. Texted J, K, A and Mec, and of course my IRL friends. I would like to think that they were all happy to see me, especially J, believe or not. He literally texted me everyday for the past two weeks I was gone. So funny, that guy. Literally everyone was telling me that he kept talking about me, about how upset he was that I was gone. And those same people also told me that he liked me LOL. But anyway, the first thing I did after coming back was helping him and K get together, so obviously he doesn't like me like that hahahah.
And to conclude the week early, I'm going back to the torture cell tomorrow - Friday. My phone will be taken away once again, at night tomorrow. And it would be a month before I would get my phone once again, so bless me. Two weeks felt like two months. I can't imagine how four weeks would feel. More tears and sulking, I guess.
Mec has been busy the whole week and J is upset, which I don't understand why either. But anyway, he texted Mec and that led to us having our first fight. Either way, Mec will be free on my last day so I'll try to talk to him as much as I can. J also happened to be free tomorrow so I guess I get both of my favourite dudes on my last day hahaha. Sigh, I feel melancholic as I'm typing this. I guess my next update will be on my next return, probably a month from now. I'll try to be more constant will my posts, even after my permanent return. I love writing, after all hahaha. See you when I see you, nobody (I really should give my blog a name 😂).
Fazzy - out for now.
Thursday, October 3, 2019
I am terrible at this XD
Well, first of all, HI!
Hahahaha I know, I know. I am really bad at keeping a constant update of my blog. Well, not like anyone is a major follower anyway, but seriously hahaha. Anyway, in regards my last post, I do have a lot to update and share, but I don't think I can do that in 2 days. So... I'll do the summary for events I can recall 😅😂
Okay so, I got into roleplaying a few months after I started work. Met a lot of very interesting people, also a lot of child predators and really just assholes. Skipping them, I would to mention one friend, N, whom I met on 1st October 2018 that is still my friend now, still roleplaying with me (a different story now lol) and has never tainted me (seriously). He's also been an amazing guy that I kinda had a crush on for a short while (very long actually). Well, we would've dated if we were closer to each other. Besides he doesn't do long distances so that's why hahaha.
Apart from that guy, I forgot to mention A, K and J. I met both A and K when I first got into group roleplaying. Ironically, before I met N. A is an amazing that has unbelievably a lot of similarities to me. The things we faced, the things we liked, our personalities. We're like literal twins, a photocopy of each other. I'm two years older than her though hahaha. K was the admin of my first group, also a magnificent girl who resonates a lot with me. A sensitive and emotional girl just like A and myself. These are my two girl besties in the RP. We've even made a pact to visit each other in the near future, and I will see to it that I do. Lastly, J. Cute guy, cute personality. He treats me like a sister, so I guess he is my brother. I used to have a crush on him and vice versa, but things turned out differently. He just recently started dating K thanks to moi, so I'm happy for them. He and K are both a year older than me, but treat me very differently hahaha. It's rather unfair to say that he is the last, considering I have made much more great friends, but these four are very important ones to me.
Fast forward to late November-December, we both got into a group RP and I met this guy, M, younger than me. A helpless romantic, like me. A guy with plenty of issues, but I loved him for who he is. We dated after a while of flirting and joking around, but it was short lived. It was toxic for the both of us. I was too hard on him and he was too confusing for me, so we went our separate ways. It was low-key a relief, but I do miss him sometimes. We're still friends, and we still talk and update each other on our lives. He asked me to get back together a few months after we broke up but I knew it wasn't what he truly wanted nor was it something I needed. It worked for the best, I''d say. He's now dating someone else too, so congrats, buddy. 😊
A couple of months after, I dated Mec, which I am still currently dating as of now. YES, I have a boyfriend! Finally hahahah. He's much older than me, much more matured, is a single father of 3. He's been very supportive and amazing despite having a very busy life. We hit a very hard time and is still facing it right now but I'm thankful that he's willing to face all this with me. I do hope we'd see this year to the end and also walk into next year together, but I do have my concerns. We'll keep that hush-hush for now. I love you, bb 💕💓
That is pretty much it. I'll get into my real life in my next post, probably in the next few hours or so. Time to go now, but I promise I'll be back shortly. Fazzy - out.
Hahahaha I know, I know. I am really bad at keeping a constant update of my blog. Well, not like anyone is a major follower anyway, but seriously hahaha. Anyway, in regards my last post, I do have a lot to update and share, but I don't think I can do that in 2 days. So... I'll do the summary for events I can recall 😅😂
Okay so, I got into roleplaying a few months after I started work. Met a lot of very interesting people, also a lot of child predators and really just assholes. Skipping them, I would to mention one friend, N, whom I met on 1st October 2018 that is still my friend now, still roleplaying with me (a different story now lol) and has never tainted me (seriously). He's also been an amazing guy that I kinda had a crush on for a short while (very long actually). Well, we would've dated if we were closer to each other. Besides he doesn't do long distances so that's why hahaha.
Apart from that guy, I forgot to mention A, K and J. I met both A and K when I first got into group roleplaying. Ironically, before I met N. A is an amazing that has unbelievably a lot of similarities to me. The things we faced, the things we liked, our personalities. We're like literal twins, a photocopy of each other. I'm two years older than her though hahaha. K was the admin of my first group, also a magnificent girl who resonates a lot with me. A sensitive and emotional girl just like A and myself. These are my two girl besties in the RP. We've even made a pact to visit each other in the near future, and I will see to it that I do. Lastly, J. Cute guy, cute personality. He treats me like a sister, so I guess he is my brother. I used to have a crush on him and vice versa, but things turned out differently. He just recently started dating K thanks to moi, so I'm happy for them. He and K are both a year older than me, but treat me very differently hahaha. It's rather unfair to say that he is the last, considering I have made much more great friends, but these four are very important ones to me.
Fast forward to late November-December, we both got into a group RP and I met this guy, M, younger than me. A helpless romantic, like me. A guy with plenty of issues, but I loved him for who he is. We dated after a while of flirting and joking around, but it was short lived. It was toxic for the both of us. I was too hard on him and he was too confusing for me, so we went our separate ways. It was low-key a relief, but I do miss him sometimes. We're still friends, and we still talk and update each other on our lives. He asked me to get back together a few months after we broke up but I knew it wasn't what he truly wanted nor was it something I needed. It worked for the best, I''d say. He's now dating someone else too, so congrats, buddy. 😊
A couple of months after, I dated Mec, which I am still currently dating as of now. YES, I have a boyfriend! Finally hahahah. He's much older than me, much more matured, is a single father of 3. He's been very supportive and amazing despite having a very busy life. We hit a very hard time and is still facing it right now but I'm thankful that he's willing to face all this with me. I do hope we'd see this year to the end and also walk into next year together, but I do have my concerns. We'll keep that hush-hush for now. I love you, bb 💕💓
That is pretty much it. I'll get into my real life in my next post, probably in the next few hours or so. Time to go now, but I promise I'll be back shortly. Fazzy - out.
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